When You Got Nothing...You Got Nothing To Lose

Worn to bare threads

Hands no longer have 

Energy to hold on

Numbness set in  

Youth died with trust

Outcries gone unheard

Useless to fight the memories

Grand oasis of oblivion

Opens up to swallow me alive as

Tears drown out any hope  

November bore a curse upon this world

Outcast from the start 

The things that make one human...missing

Hidden beneath a layer of mistrust

Indignation brewed beneath the surface

Night after wretched night 

Grabbing hold like a demonic vice  

Yearning for release

Out numbered and overthrown

Ugly scar upon the face of humanity   

Grasping for hope 

Only to slide back down 

The floor of that dark pit awaits

Numbness sought with every prick of the skin

Only to crash back harder 

Time waits for no man, but neither does it hurry along

Hope flickers like a dying flame

Indignation rotting away at the core 

Nothing seems to matter 

Giving up and giving in 

Time wont heal some wounds

Oblivion's  kiss the only relief

Life has run it's course

Outlived its usefulness

Scared and bruised my being and finally

Eviscerated my will to remain

Expired Existence

Shadows of doubt encrypting my mind
 another day passes still walkin' the line
 weathered roads, scarred and worn
 run through this life, all broken and torn

 Sever the past that forever will haunt
 quell the demons that endlessly taunt
 no longer do i have the will
 to fight this raging urge to kill

 Take this existence from me
 run me through then set me free
 release the sorrow to flow like rain
 as I drain this life from my veins

Shadowed Reflection

Because of you I curse my daily existence
as time creeps ever so slowly towards its end
You leave me standing in a world of darkness,
constant shadows enveloping my being
suffocating in a misty gloom of forgotten dreams,
broken promises, and lost hope
I wish to shatter your existence forever
cut you down leaving you to bleed
You left my world nearly colorless,
muted shades of gray and blue
a fog that covers my soul and suffocates endlessly.
In your eyes I see the lost hope of humanity
the slow decay of time and purpose.
Because of you I can not see past my faults
my weakness and my constant pain.
You hold me prisoner within myself
forced to live a life unwanted and detached
void of all feeling of worth and reason.
A shadowed reflection of myself, gazing back into my eyes.

Shadows of hope fade into the darkness,
consumed by the world around them,
crying out yet silent,
then fading, and gone.
A mind that does not think past the moment,
causing heartache to those around it,
destroying that, which should have embraced.
Selfish, worthless, unworthy.
Time wasted that should have been cherished,
time lost, that can now, never be replaced.
Now, In these twilight hours of my being,
as the light draws to a close,
and fades to shades of violet and black,
a clock ticking off its final moments,
all I can say is... I am sorry.

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False Knowledge of the Heart

How does one feel the right

to say what another's heart feels?

Do they feel its agony,

when the world around it falls in ruin?

Do they feel its gentle sigh,

in moments of rare serenity?

The gentle breeze and

smell of damp earth that calms it?

The brilliant flash of lightning in

summer storms that excite it?

Do they feel its numbness at times,

brought on my the world around it?

Do they feel it break?

Shatter into pieces and bleed dry?

How does one feel the right

to say what another's heart feels?

They may think they have the knowledge

of what lies inside,

But quite simply.....They don't.

Thought Expressed To A Friend

PHYSICAL PAIN IS BY FAR, EASIER TO HANDLE, THAN ANYTHING OF THE HEART.

Roaming

Why must things always slip through the cracks,
fall to the ground and shatter ,
crashing into a thousand shards of lost hope,
and infinite agony?
Why am I so detached in this time and place?
Feeling lost,
left to wander a world I was never meant to be part of.
Drifting through these the years wishing each to be my last
yet my heart still beats on in agony.
Lost or forgotten dreams seem to haunt my mind,
as life holds me here against my will.
I wish to be free,
to be forever rid of this endless roaming.