Shadows...Voices ..Things of long past
Haunting a Wrecked Mind.
Things left unsaid and undone..
To late now... Frozen.
In the past..Locked away.
Better that way.
Left behind..Buried beneath,
Lost as the Years have been Lost.
Rusted ..Crumbled ..Rotten.
Washed away in a River of Tears.
Drowning in Agony..Gasping for Air.
Bleeding from a Gash left in the Heart.
Choking on Hatred..Distrust...Betrayal.

Have you ever felt the need to spill another's blood?
A feeling so strong that it eats away at you and demands your attention?
Grating on your nerves making them raw.
Tying your guts in knots that grow tighter and tighter.
Echoing and bouncing off the walls of your mind.
All you can do is sit and think about it, knowing you can do nothing....
Not yet anyways.
All in due time...They say every dog has his day.
Some dogs will find that their day has come sooner than expected.
When thy find themselves lying on the cold ground..
their life's blood slowly draining away.
Body growing cold and numb.
Light slowly fading from their eyes.
A faint ringing in their ears....
Then nothing.
Death.

I havent written much on here latley, Hell I have not done much of anything latley but sleep and fell like death warmed over. Maybe things will be different soon, better in some way...then again maybe not, Hell who knows. I guess all one can do is wait and see. One thing is sure, There is a change in the air.

He sits in darkness
trying to ignore some of what he hears.
They never shut up
and when the do it is not He who enjoys the silence.
At those times He is gone,
lost somewhere within himself perhaps.
And the thoughts flood his mind,
because he knows they are out there...
just waiting for their chance.
Walking a thin line at times ,
between reality and total insanity,
or so they say.
But what do they know anyways.
Tired of all the games the thought comes back,
the same thought that is never far away...
smoking cold steel.
But this time it is pushed aside,
thrown back into the corners of his mind to wait.
Beats his head on the desk,
grasping at the hope that perhaps that may help.
But of course it does not...Still screaming...Taunting.
Shadows move , out of the corner of his eye.
He sees them, knows they are there.
No use in turning to look , because they always elude sight.
disappearing into the shadows.....Watching....Waiting.

Forever I'll love you she said
whispered it softly in my ear...
ruby lips caress my neck
then teeth sunk in my flesh...
One last time...runs through my head
Forever I'll be yours she said
Nails rake down my back...
as I bite deeply into her shoulder
taste the warm blood as it flows
smell the sweetness of her flesh
One last time...never again
Forever I'll be true she said
as she looked deep within my eyes
as if trying to read my soul
then jumping back...as if she had done just that
read my soul...felt its darkness..tasted the hate
A single tear ran down her face...as she realized
somehow I knew....knew what she had done
and would never forgive her for it.
True? I asked her.....Fuckin TRUE..I screamed
in a rage....as I shoved her into the wall
A rage so deep I wanted to rip out her throat
As she sat there...tears streaming down her face...
As I stood above her....screaming...hating...unforgiving
Love left my soul....Forever